Heard that Designer Graham Ferris from HTV West has died. Hot on the heels of my mother's examination yesterday, l feel l see 'death' in my wing mirror! My mother told me on the telephone this morning how positive she felt. She is an inspiration to me. I took my tea out into the garden and sat at the table with both cats in front of me and felt the sun on my face and watched the swifts giving me a free aerial ballet overhead and felt humbled. l am now in the attic and about to chant. Lawrence the cat has just moaned in his sleep and stretched. How cathartic this is. It does not matter that no one but me will be reading these jottings.